Kesha Speaks Podcast

You’d think liking each other would come with the whole getting-married-and-building-a-family package. Apparently, that deserves its own conversation.

Because wanting a marriage to continue and showing interest in the person you’re married to aren’t always the same thing. What interests her. What makes her laugh. Whatever she’s excited about this week that has absolutely nothing to do with what she can do for you. And when that interest feels absent, it’s easy to turn the distance into another thing you’re responsible for fixing.

Maybe I need to explain myself better. Find something we both enjoy. Pick a better time.

This video is about what happens when you finally question that assignment... and start wondering whether your partner actually enjoys who you are.

What makes you feel liked in a relationship? What do you notice when that’s missing?

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It’s funny how a woman can be praised for being strong, capable, and clear about what she wants, then get treated like a problem when she wants more from her husband.

Now we need to talk about her tone. Somebody wants to know whether she’s asked nicely. She gets reminded to appreciate what he does, or warned not to nag. Meanwhile, I’d like to know what h…

“Communicate your needs” is reasonable advice. But what happens when you’ve been communicating them for years, and somehow the problem is still how you asked?

This isn’t just about chores. It’s about wanting somebody to notice when you’re overwhelmed, make plans sometimes, and be interested in you. It’s about sharing responsibility for your life together without having to supervise his participation.

And sometimes, when a woman stops asking, it isn’t because things got better. She’s just tired of having the conversation.

I’m curious: Have you ever stopped asking for something you still needed? What made you stop?

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There’s a very specific kind of confusion that comes with being in a long marriage or relationship and realizing something ain’t right.

Not one bad week. Not a rough patch that can be fixed with a date night. I mean that deeper moment when you start wondering if the relationship you’ve spent years explaining to yourself is the same one you’re actually living in.

That’s where we’re starting this four-part series.

In Part One, we’re talking about the stories we use to make an unequal, lonely, or exhausting relationship feel okay, and what happens when those stories stop working.

There’s a funny little requirement some people have for women talking about their difficult marriages: before you explain what hurt you, please establish that you’ve also been a pain in the ass.

Friend, I can provide references. Can we get to my point now?

What bothers me is how easily the conversation gets stuck there. A woman starts explaining something that took her years to understand, and suddenly she’s defending whether she has the right to be upset at all. By the time she’s finished proving she’s considered everybody’s feelings, we’ve barely talked about hers.

I think that lands with a lot of us because we’ve done it privately, too. I’ve caught myself adding so much context about why my husband did something that I practically talked myself out of being hurt by it. Being fair to him mattered to me. But somewhere in all that explaining, I needed to be fair to myself, too.

So yes, we can talk about my part. Let’s just make sure we actually get around to the rest of the marriage.

Have you ever told someone what was happening in your relationship and ended up defending why you were hurt? What did they say?

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Your husband’s finally doing some of the things you’ve been asking for, and now there’s this little expectation that you should be feeling… appreciative.

You are appreciative. The kitchen looks great. You still don’t want to have sex.

Now what? Are you being unfair? Is your body supposed to have received an update when he unloaded the dishwasher?

This is where “but he’s trying” can get complicated. You can notice the effort and still need time. Especially if you’re not sure whether your husband’s taking responsibility for your shared life or just waiting to see whether his new routine produces the results he had in mind. And honestly, it’s hard to relax and enjoy a change when you can feel somebody checking whether it’s working on you yet.

I get into this in my Sex and Desire series, because women already have enough on the list without adding “develop renewed sexual enthusiasm by Thursday.”

Has your husband ever started doing more, then gotten frustrated because you still didn’t want sex? I want to hear how that conversation went.

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