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Empathy isn’t a feeling that’s supposed to show up on cue the night your wife tells you how much your choices have cost her — it’s a skill you build long before that moment arrives. In this episode, Chris unpacks why empathy is so hard for men walking through sexual addiction and betrayal recovery, and offers a simple, practical framework — the HEART process (Halt, Examine, Attend, Reflect, Turn toward) — for staying present with someone else’s pain instead of defending, fixing, or fleeing it.

Scripture Referenced

● James 1:19 (NIV) — quick to listen, slow to speak, slow to anger

● Philippians 2:3–4 (NIV) — valuing others above ourselves

● John 11:35 (NIV) — “Jesus wept” at Lazarus’s tomb

● Romans 12:15 (NIV) — “mourn with those who mourn”

Resources Mentioned

● Dr. Jake Porter, Daring Ventures Counseling, Coaching & Consulting — https://daringventures.com

● Email the show: puritypodcast@castimonia.org

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A lot of us have learned to treat self-hatred as proof of sincerity — beating ourselves up in front of our wives, or in the privacy of our own heads, as if the depth of our misery is what makes our sorrow real. This week, Chris unpacks the difference between Judas’s self-destructive remorse and Peter’s restorative grief, names three ways self-shame disguises itself as repentance, and offers a practical alternative: trading performance for fruit — the kind of consistent, visible follow-through that actually rebuilds trust with the people we’ve hurt.

Scripture Referenced

Matthew 27:3–5 (Judas’s remorse) · Luke 22:54–62 (Peter’s denial and weeping) · John 21:15–19 (Jesus restores Peter) · 2 Corinthians 7:10–11 (godly sorrow produces action) · Luke 3:8 (“bear fruit in keeping with repentance”) · Romans 2:4 (God’s kindness leads to repentance)

Resources & Links Mentioned

Castimonia.org — Christ-centered 12-Step recovery meetings · puritypodcast@castimonia.org — send in your questions or story · The Transformational Recovery Matrix (Trapped quadrant, referenced in this episode)

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After a road-rage moment with a stranger, Chris breaks down the real sequence behind every outburst — trigger, then adrenaline, then emotion, then reaction and shows how the exact same neurological hijack drives both anger and sexual temptation. This episode covers identifying what you’re really protecting when you react, building a “preloaded response” before the trigger hits, giving your body a job to interrupt the adrenaline spike, and repairing quickly instead of spiraling into shame after a failure.

Scripture referenced: Colossians 3:3 · 1 Corinthians 10:13 · Psalm 46:10 · James 1:19–20 · 1 John 1:9 · Philippians 4:6–7

Resources mentioned: Castimonia.org · Dr. Jake Porter, Daring Ventures (daringventures.com)

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Why do men who love God, hate their sin, and genuinely want freedom keep going back? In this episode, Chris breaks down the neuroscience behind pornography addiction — dopamine hijacking, receptor downregulation, trigger wiring, and what the first 90 days of recovery actually feel like from the inside. Then he maps it all onto the Transformational Recovery Matrix to show why behavior management (Q4) and denial (Q3) can never get you to where God is calling you. Real freedom starts with understanding what’s actually happening in your brain — and surrendering that, too.

Key Concepts:

• Dopamine and the mesolimbic reward pathway

• Receptor downregulation and anhedonia in behavioral addiction

• Neuroplasticity and cortical rewiring

• HALT framework (Hunger, Anger, Loneliness, Tiredness)

• Urge surfing — mindfulness-based craving intervention

• Post-acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS)

• Transformational Recovery Matrix — Q1 through Q4

Scripture:

• Romans 12:2 — “Be transformed by the renewing of your mind”

• Hebrews 4:15 — “Tempted in every way, yet without sin”

• 2 Corinthians 5:17 — “New creation; the old has gone, the new is here”

Links for Show Notes:

• Transformational Recovery Matrix — https://ourrelentlesspursuit.com
• Castimonia recovery groups — https://castimonia.org
• Episode 137 (companion episode: Transformation, Not Transaction — Romans 12)
• Episode 107 (PATH Plan with Dan Johnson)

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In this episode, Chris explores the Bible through the lens of addiction recovery and the Transformational Recovery Matrix. Drawing on themes from The Transformational Recovery Matrix, this conversation unpacks the differences between sobriety and transformation, performance and surrender, and behavior management and heart renewal.

Chris explains:

• Why addiction disciples the body and mind
• How the four recovery quadrants expose deeper heart postures
• The Greek meaning behind “be transformed”
• Why transformation is passive but participatory
• The difference between transactional and transformational recovery
• How “trivial boomerangs” reveal deeper character issues
• Why God grows oak trees, not microwaved Christians

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What if the problem isn’t that men don’t know enough… but that they’re trying to recover alone?

In this episode of Purity Podcast, Chris sits down with Chandler fromhttps://www.joinrelay.appRelay (JoinRelay.app) to discuss the role of connection, vulnerability, and community in sexual addiction recovery.

Together they explore:

• Why isolation fuels addiction
• The difference between accountability and genuine connection
• Why many recovery models fail to produce lasting transformation
• The role shame plays in secrecy and relapse
• How healthy male community changes recovery
• Why recovery cannot depend solely on a spouse
• Whether technology can actually support meaningful healing

This conversation is honest, practical, and deeply encouraging for anyone who feels exhausted trying to fight alone.

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In this episode, Chris examines Dallas Willard’s powerful VIM framework (Vision, Intention, Means) and why many men remain stuck in pornography despite strong accountability and safeguards. Drawing on Willard’s teaching on spiritual formation, Chris explores why lasting freedom requires deeper transformation—not just behavior management. Chris then plugs this into his Transformational Recovery Matrix to show you how to see true life change.

Key Topics:

• Why pornography is a formation issue

• The VIM model explained

• Where most recovery efforts break down

• The difference between suppression and transformation

• Practical steps toward deeper freedom

Primary Source:
Dallas Willard, Beyond Pornography: Spiritual Formation Studied in a Particular Case (University of Southern California)

Link to the original Dallas Willard Teaching: https://open.spotify.com/episode/4vUdAVjyMOdIKGpbTvJG0F?si=WSZKx46bSViE1JqFYFltEw

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Today on the Purity Podcast, Chris interviews Dana Hargus, licensed professional counselor and founder of Restore of Ada, about the deep connection between trauma, nervous-system dysregulation, sexual addiction, and betrayal trauma.

This episode explores:

• Why insight, willpower, and accountability alone often fail in sexual addiction recovery
• How porn and compulsive sexual behaviors function as nervous-system regulation tools
• The role of trauma and attachment wounds in relapse cycles
• What betrayed partners experience in their bodies—not just their emotions
• Why safety must be restored before intimacy or reconciliation is possible
• How biofeedback and whole-person healing can create lasting transformation

Learn more about Dana’s work:
Restore of Ada –https://restoreofada.com/https://restoreofada.com/

This conversation is essential listening for addicts, spouses, and leaders who want recovery that goes deeper than behavior modification.

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What does The Hunt for Red October have in common with helping your wife through her pain?

In this episode, we explore what it actually means to sit with your wife’s pain after betrayal, and why most men struggle to do it well.

Using the framework of CVE: Compassion, Validation, and Empathy, we look at why pain isn’t a problem to solve, but a reality to enter. You’ll hear why explaining, defending, or minimizing often makes things worse, and how true empathy requires proximity, not emotional distance.

We also draw an unexpected parallel between cybersecurity incident response and marriage recovery, unpacking why ignored vulnerabilities create more damage over time—and how moving toward pain can neutralize its destructive power.

In this episode, you’ll learn:

• Why compassion begins with seeing, not fixing

• How validation acknowledges reality without surrendering truth

• Why empathy is proximity, not detachment

• How distancing yourself from pain allows it to grow more destructive

• What Scripture teaches about presence, listening, and emotional safety

How to repair when you get CVE wrong (because you will)

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Today on the Purity Podcast, Chris is interviewing Rick Reynolds, LCSW, founder and president of AffairRecovery.com. Rick brings more than three decades of clinical experience helping individuals and couples heal from the devastation of infidelity, along with the weight and credibility of his own story of betrayal and restoration that began in 1984. As the pioneer behind the first anonymous, online group recovery programs for affair recovery, Rick has counseled thousands of couples and guided many more through structured, hope-filled pathways toward healing. His work is marked not by shame or blame, but by honesty, accountability, vulnerability, and a deep belief that real transformation is possible even after profound relational trauma.
Key Resources:

• Affair Recovery Analyzer – free assessment to start recovery. (Affair Recovery)
• First Step Bootcamp – 7-day introductory healing pathway. (Amazon Web Services, Inc.)
• Recovery Library – extensive articles, videos, Q&A with Rick. (Affair Recovery)
• Harboring Hope – 13-week course for betrayed partners. (Affair Recovery)
• Hope for Healing – 17-week course for unfaithful spouses. (Affair Recovery)
• EMS Online – 13-week couples healing course. (Affair Recovery)

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In this episode, we sit down with therapist, coach, and author Taylor Chambers — founder of The Good and the Free. Taylor opens up about his own journey through religious upbringing, porn addiction, relapse, and the long — and still ongoing — process of rebuilding his life. He shares why traditional addiction-recovery rhetoric fell short for him and many clients, and how he reinvented a path rooted in sexual health, mindfulness, deep intimacy, and self-leadership.

We dive deep into topics like:

• The emotional and spiritual impact of pornography and shame on men’s lives

• Why willpower and “white-knuckling it” often fail — and what works instead

• What sexual wholeness, relational integrity and healthy intimacy truly look like

• How to rebuild trust, connection, and emotional honesty in relationships after addiction

• Practical steps for recovery that don’t just remove porn — but redefine sexuality, identity, and purpose

• How to raise children and care for future generations in a porn-saturated world

Whether you’re struggling yourself or supporting someone you love, this conversation offers a refreshing, compassionate, hope-filled framework for healing and growth.

Resources Mentioned:

• The Good and the Free (website & community) (https://www.wearethegoodandthefree.com/)

• Upcoming/ongoing events or programs (e.g. the “Porn-Resilient” summit or masterclasses) for listeners interested in learning more. (wearethegoodandthefree.com)

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In this powerful conversation, Chris sits down with Joe Madison, founder of Demand Disruption, an organization dedicated to ending human trafficking by addressing the demand side—the buyers. Joe exposes some of the hardest truths about exploitation, pornography, and the cultural attitudes that fuel the trafficking market.

This episode is a wake-up call for men pursuing purity, integrity, and Christ-centered recovery. Joe explains why fighting demand is essential, how pornography shapes buyer behavior, and what real change looks like inside our churches, communities, and personal lives.

If you’ve ever wondered how your pursuit of purity connects to the fight against human trafficking, this episode will connect the dots in ways you’ve likely never heard before.

Demand Disruption – Learn more about Joe’s work: http://www.demanddisruption.org/

Disruption University – Training and education programs: http://disruptionu.demanddisruption.org

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The first 90 days of recovery can feel overwhelming, disorienting, and emotionally exhausting — but they’re also the most transformational part of the journey. In this episode, Chris walks through what makes the early stages of recovery so challenging and what actually works to build a strong foundation for sexual purity.

Through teaching, Scripture, and the real story of a man named “Michael,” you’ll learn why the first 90 days matter, why they’re spiritually strategic, and how to navigate them with honesty, community, structure, and surrender.

Recovery doesn’t begin with strength — it begins with brokenness.
And that’s exactly where God begins to rebuild.

“The first 90 days aren’t about perfection — they’re about direction.”

Recovery Plan can be found by clicking here: Recovery Plan

To learn more about Castimonia, find a meeting, or give feedback on future episodes, email us at puritypodcast@castimonia.org

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Join Chris today as he interviews Brian Shillingburg. Brian is the founder of 9th Inning Project, where he walks with men out of pornography and sexual compulsivity through honest conversation, courageous accountability, and the transforming power of Jesus Christ. A certified Sexual Addiction Recovery Coach (SARC) with a master’s in education, Brian has spent his 25-year career developing people, building teams, and mentoring men through life’s most defining challenges—drawing deeply from his own journey through addiction and redemption. He coaches men 1:1 and in small groups and equips churches and leaders with practical pathways toward reconciliation and lasting freedom.

Learn more: http://9thInningProject.com | brian@9thinningproject.com

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Today, Chris is interviewing Dan Johnson. Dan was on Episode 106 where he introduced his P.A.T.H. Plan. Today, he unpacks more of his strategy for recovery by telling us about a concept he calls the Frontline Framework.

In order to have a solid recovery, you first have to have a solid plan. The Frontline Framework challenges you to have a predetermined plan, awareness of the moment, and reasons to implement the plan.

To learn more about Dan and the Groups he offers go to http://newpaths.me/.

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Many of us men don’t understand how to relate to our addiction with compassion. We get sober by suppressing the “addict parts” of our mind, without realizing the roots of our behaviors and what those parts were trying to do for us. We sit on top of them, try to control ourselves, and force our way through recovery. There is a better way. It is rooted in Christ. I teach my clients a systematic approach to utilize emotional mindfulness, parts work, embodiment, and self-compassion to use painful emotions like addiction cravings to deepen self-understanding and self-love, so they can lose their need for addiction over time.

Today Chris interviews Jake Kastleman. Jake is the founder ofhttps://www.nomoredesire.com/https://www.nomoredesire.com/, a Christ-centered platform dedicated to helping men break free from unwanted sexual behavior and live whole, healed, and holy lives. What sets Jake apart is his deep commitment to inner transformation, not just outward sobriety. Through his writing, coaching, and online resources, Jake challenges men to do more than stop sinning—he invites them to start healing.

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In this episode, Chris wraps up the series on the Transformational Recovery Matrix (TRM) by equipping men with a practical Transformation Playbook. After exploring the four quadrants—Trivial, Trapped, Transactional, and Transformational—we now land on the heart of the journey: becoming the man God has called you to be.

This conversation isn’t about trying harder or managing your image—it’s about surrender, integrity, and living for Christ as your foundation. Whether you’re single, married, or divorced, God’s invitation remains the same: step into wholeness and freedom in Him.

Chris walks through:

• The Heart of Transformation — why change must move from behavior management to heart surrender.

• Eight Transformation Commitments — radical ownership, pursuing God first, daily surrender, choosing truth, welcoming accountability, humble repentance, building a new legacy, and living for an audience of One.

• A Daily Transformational Rhythm — simple morning and evening practices to anchor your day in Christ.

• Early Warning Signs of Drift — subtle ways men slip back into old patterns and how to course-correct before a crash.

Resources & Next Steps

• Learn more about Castimonia meetings (in-person, Zoom, and phone): castimonia.org
• Subscribe to the podcast for weekly hope and encouragement.
• Share this episode with a brother who needs to hear it.
• Evening Reflection Journal, by Lisa Archinal

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In this episode, Chris unpacks the Transformational Recovery Matrix—a simple but powerful way to see where you are in your recovery journey. The four quadrants—Trivial, Trapped, Transactional, and Transformational—show the difference between just managing sin and truly living free.

Chris shares his own turning point, when recovery stopped being a fight to “just stop sinning” and became a pursuit of wholeness. He explains the five core traits of transformational living—Integrity, Honesty & Transparency, Intimacy with Christ, Living with Purpose, and Gospel Dependence—along with real-life examples and practical steps any man can start today.

If you’ve ever felt stuck in shame, tired of white-knuckling your way through temptation, or wondered why sobriety still feels empty, this episode will help you shift from behavior management to heart transformation.

Key Scriptures: Proverbs 10:9, 1 John 1:7, John 15:5, Ephesians 2:10, 2 Corinthians 12:9

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In this episode, we explore the Transactional Quadrant—where recovery becomes more about checking boxes than changing hearts. You may be sober, but are you truly free?

We discuss the difference between compliance and transformation, the trap of religious performance, and how to let your tools (filters, check-ins, groups) lead to real intimacy with Jesus.

Reflection Questions:

• Is my recovery about avoiding consequences—or becoming more like Christ?
• Am I driven by fear… or drawn by grace?

Quote:

“The real blessing is not the sobriety we seek, but the journey we walk.” – Mark Denison

Next Episode: Transformational: Where Freedom Gets Real

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Welcome back to The Purity Podcast, sponsored by Castimonia, a Christ-centered 12-step recovery program for men battling sexual addiction.

In today’s episode, we dive into the Trapped Quadrant of the Transformational Recovery Matrix—the place where denial stops working but true change still feels impossible.

We’ll break it down in three parts:

The Wall — When your old excuses collapse under the weight of reality.
The Shame Spiral — Bouncing between guilt and secret promises that never last.
From Trying Harder to Trusting Deeper — Why real freedom isn’t about willpower, but surrender.

If you feel stuck, ashamed, or exhausted from trying harder—this episode is for you.

Because freedom doesn’t start with perfection.
It starts with pursuit.

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