SORRY SATAN THIS SOUL IS FOR THE SAVIOR

She was only 3 years old when abuse entered her life. But her story didn’t end there.

On this powerful episode of Sorry Satan This Soul is for The Savior with Kerie Hamilton, we welcome Lauren from LA Beauty Salon as she courageously shares her testimony of surviving childhood abuse, beginning with an abusive babysitter, and how those early experiences followed her into adulthood and romantic relationships.

We dive deep into the lasting psychological effects of childhood trauma, domestic violence, toxic relationships, trauma bonds, and the difficult journey of recognizing unhealthy patterns.

How does childhood abuse shape our understanding of love? Why do survivors sometimes find themselves in familiar cycles of abuse? And what does it take to finally break free?

Lauren’s testimony is more than a story of survival. It’s a conversation about awareness, resilience, healing, and reclaiming your voice.

💜 Your past may explain your patterns, but it does not have to determine your future.

🎧 Tune in for an emotional, honest, and empowering conversation that reminds survivors they are not alone.

Because silence protects the cycle. Speaking up can help break it.

Content Warning: Discussions of childhood abuse and domestic violence.

How do abandonment wounds affect the way we love, trust, communicate, and choose relationships? In this raw and honest conversation, Kerie Hamilton and JD explore how childhood abandonment, parental absence, emotional wounds, and survival patterns can continue to influence adult relationships.

Kerie opens up about experiencing father abandonment and the patterns she developed while trying to protect herself and others. JD shares his experience of being raised by his father after his mother left, navigating a complicated relationship with his stepmother, and learning how to understand and express emotions he once struggled to communicate.

Together, they unpack the connection between childhood trauma and adult relationships, including:

• Why familiar pain can sometimes feel safer than healthy love

• How childhood survival patterns can follow us into adulthood

• Why emotionally unavailable partners may feel familiar

• The difference between sacrifice, attachment, and genuine connection

• How boundaries can help break unhealthy relationship patterns

• The role of vulnerability and emotional communication

• What forgiveness can look like without ignoring the pain

• How self-reflection can help us recognize repeating patterns

• Why healthy love can sometimes feel unfamiliar after trauma

Healing isn’t always about changing the people who hurt us. Sometimes, it begins with understanding why certain patterns became familiar in the first place.

Kerie and JD share their personal perspectives on abandonment, family dynamics, emotional availability, forgiveness, boundaries, vulnerability, and the hard work of creating healthier connections.

If you’ve ever wondered “Why do I keep repeating the same relationship patterns?” or questioned why healthy love feels unfamiliar, this conversation offers an honest look at the wounds beneath the patterns—and what it can mean to begin breaking them.

#AbandonmentWounds #ChildhoodTrauma #AttachmentTrauma #HealingJourney #RelationshipTrauma #EmotionalHealing #AbandonmentTrauma #InnerChildHealing #HealthyRelationships #Boundaries

What happens when you stop ignoring the signs and start listening to wisdom?

In this episode of Sorry Satan This Soul is for The Savior with Kerie Hamilton, we dive into a powerful message about wisdom, discernment, direction, and guarding your heart.

Kerie reminds us that what we allow into our hearts can influence the direction of our lives. Not every voice deserves access to you. Not every relationship is meant to continue. And sometimes, staying on the right path means having the courage to walk away from what keeps pulling you off it.

Kerie shares a raw perspective on recognizing manipulation, trusting your discernment, protecting your peace, and learning that familiar doesn’t always mean healthy.

Guard your heart. Watch your path. Choose wisdom.

Because sometimes God isn’t asking you to move faster…

He’s asking you to make sure you’re moving in the right direction.

What happens when the person you trusted to lead you is actually the person betraying you?

In this powerful episode of Sorry Satan This Soul is for The Savior with Kerie Hamilton, Kerie explores Zechariah 11 through the lens of betrayal, narcissistic abuse, manipulation, discernment, toxic relationships, and learning what real love is…and what love is not.

Kerie shares her personal journey of learning that love isn’t control, manipulation, fear, or losing yourself to keep someone else happy. Sometimes the people we believe are good, trustworthy, or safe can be the very people leading us away from our truth.

Zechariah 11’s imagery of the shepherd and the flock becomes a powerful reminder to look beyond appearances and pay attention to character, actions, and fruit.

This conversation is about recognizing when manipulation becomes control, when deception becomes normalized, and when following someone else’s version of reality causes you to abandon your own.

Most importantly, it’s about discovering that truth doesn’t always feel freeing at first…but standing in truth eventually sets you free.

If you’ve ever experienced narcissistic abuse, betrayal, a toxic relationship, trauma bonding, manipulation, or the painful process of rebuilding your identity after someone made you question yourself, this episode is for you.

You don’t have to keep following what is destroying you just because you once believed it was leading you somewhere good.

Sometimes the moment is simply realizing:

“This isn’t love. This isn’t truth. And I don’t have to follow it anymore.”

What happens when you lose everything—and finally surrender it all to God?

In this powerful episode of Sorry Satan This Soul is for The Savior with Kerie Hamilton, Sal shares his raw and deeply personal testimony of battling alcoholism, facing terminal cancer, and coming to a place where he had no choice but to surrender.

This isn’t just a story about addiction or illness. It’s a story about faith, surrender, spiritual warfare, redemption, and finding God when you feel like you’ve reached the end of yourself.

Sal opens up about the darkness of alcoholism, the reality of facing a terminal diagnosis, and the moment he realized he could no longer continue fighting life on his own terms. Instead of surrendering to the darkness, he chose to surrender to God.

His journey is a reminder that sometimes our greatest transformation begins at our lowest point.

You may hit rock bottom…but rock bottom doesn’t have to be the end of your story.

If you’re battling addiction, struggling with hopelessness, facing a life-changing diagnosis, or questioning where God is in the middle of your pain, Sal’s testimony may remind you that there is still purpose on the other side of surrender.

🎙️ Sorry Satan This Soul is for The Savior with Kerie Hamilton is a Trauma to Transformation based podcast for the Ones Who Hit Rock Bottom and chose to rise . It’s a safe space of giving hope that there is healing and Heaven, no matter the journey.

#AlcoholismRecovery #AddictionRecovery #ChristianTestimony #FaithOverFear #SurrenderToGod #CancerJourney #RecoveryStory #GodsGrace #Redemption #SpiritualAwakening #FaithBasedRecovery #ChristianTestimony #FaithOverFear #SurrenderToGod #CancerJourney #RecoveryStory #GodsGrace #Redemption #SpiritualAwakening #FaithBasedRecovery

What if what you call ambition isn’t actually ambition at all?

Sometimes the relentless drive to succeed, prove yourself, stay productive, achieve more, or finally become “good enough” can come from somewhere much deeper—the mother wound, father wound, childhood trauma, emotional neglect, or the need to earn the love and validation you didn’t receive growing up.

In this episode, we’re unpacking the difference between healthy ambition and trauma-driven achievement.

Are you chasing your dreams because they genuinely fulfill you—or because some wounded part of you is still trying to prove your worth?

We’ll explore childhood trauma, attachment wounds, inner child healing, parental validation, people-pleasing, perfectionism, narcissistic parenting, abandonment wounds, self-worth, and the pressure to become successful as a way of escaping your past.

Because healing isn’t about becoming less ambitious

It’s about making sure your ambition belongs to you-not the wounded version of you that had something to prove.

Your success hits differently when you no longer need it to prove that you are worthy.

What happens when the person you have to co-parent with is also the person who constantly manipulates, controls, gaslights, or creates conflict? Or what if you are dating and cannot break from the trauma bond with the narcissist and you have children involved?

In this raw and honest episode, we unpack the reality of parenting with a narcissist—from narcissistic co-parenting and emotional manipulation to smear campaigns, reactive abuse, parental alienation, and the impossible pressure of trying to protect your children while maintaining your own peace.

You’ll learn how narcissistic behavior can impact children, why high-conflict co-parenting feels so exhausting, and how to stop getting pulled into the cycle of defending, explaining, and reacting.

Because sometimes healing isn’t about getting the narcissist to understand.

It’s about learning how to stop letting their chaos control your peace and becoming the safe, emotionally healthy parent your children need.

What happens when someone pushes you, provokes you, gaslights you, manipulates you, and then uses your reaction as “proof” that you are the problem?

In this powerful episode of SORRY SATAN THIS SOUL IS FOR THE SAVIOR with Kerie Hamilton, we unpack reactive abuse: what it is, how abusers can provoke emotional reactions, and why your response does not erase the pattern of abuse that came before it.

Because sometimes the reaction everyone sees is only the last chapter of a story they never witnessed.

They showed everyone your reaction. They just forgot to tell them what they did to create it.😡

Nobody talks enough about what happens to your body when you live in survival mode.

Constant stress.

Walking on eggshells.

Hypervigilance.

Anxiety.

Sleepless nights.

Emotional exhaustion.

You keep trying to survive the relationship… while your body is screaming, “I don’t feel safe.”

And let me make this clear: YOU ARE NOT “too sensitive.” Your nervous system may be responding to prolonged stress.

The healing begins when you stop making their chaos your responsibility.

You don’t need their apology to choose peace.

You don’t need their validation to choose yourself.

And you don’t need to destroy your health trying to prove your worth to someone who keeps hurting you.

PROTECT YOUR PEACE BECAUSE IN TIME; YOUR HEALTH WILL FORCE YOU TO‼️

#NarcissisticAbuse #Narcissist #TraumaHealing #EmotionalAbuse #NarcissisticAbuseRecovery #HealingJourney #Survivor #ToxicRelationships #NervousSystemHealing #MentalHealthAwareness #ChooseYourself #SelfWorth #TraumaRecovery

Why was I attracted to the narcissist in the first place?

The brutal truth is sometimes we don’t recognize narcissistic abuse because the relationship feels familiar, not because it’s healthy.

When you’ve learned to ignore your own needs, silence your intuition, overgive, and prove your worth to receive love, you can mistake emotional chaos for connection.

In this episode, we unpack the uncomfortable truth behind narcissistic abuse, trauma bonds, self-abandonment, emotional dependency, and the patterns that can keep us attached to people who continually hurt us.

Healing isn’t about blaming yourself for what happened.

It’s about finally asking:

“Why did I abandon myself to be loved by someone else?”

The turning point comes when you realize you were never asking for too much…you were asking the wrong person.

This is the journey from self-abandonment to self-love, from trauma bonding to freedom, and from surviving narcissistic abuse to reclaiming who you were always meant to be.

You don’t have to lose yourself to keep someone else.

Choose yourself. Reclaim yourself. Never abandon yourself for someone else’s love again.

What is Narcissistic Personality Disorder—and how is it different from narcissistic behavior?

In this episode, we’re taking a deeper look at Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD), what it actually means clinically, and why the term “narcissist” is often misunderstood.

We’ll explore the characteristics associated with NPD, including grandiosity, a need for admiration, entitlement, difficulty with empathy, relationship difficulties, and patterns of behavior that can deeply affect the people around them.

But there’s an important distinction: not everyone who displays narcissistic traits has NPD. A diagnosis belongs to a qualified mental-health professional.

Most importantly, this conversation isn’t about labeling or diagnosing someone from a distance.

It’s about understanding the patterns, recognizing what isn’t healthy, and learning that you don’t need someone else’s diagnosis to validate your experience.

Because sometimes healing begins when you stop asking:

“What is wrong with them?”

…and start asking:

“What do I need to do to protect and rebuild myself?”

Why does leaving a toxic or narcissistic relationship feel like withdrawal? Because a trauma bond can function much like an addiction. The cycle of love bombing, emotional abuse, intermittent reinforcement, and reconciliation can create powerful neurological and emotional dependence.

* What trauma bond addiction is

* Why you crave the person who hurt you

* The brain science behind emotional addiction

* How narcissistic abuse creates trauma bonds

* Signs you’re addicted to the relationship, not the person

If you’ve ever asked, “Why can’t I just leave?” or “Why do I miss someone who destroyed me?”…this conversation is for you.

Do you keep attracting emotionally unavailable, toxic, or unhealthy partners? It isn’t bad luck; it may be unhealed patterns.

In this episode we uncover the four biggest signs that you’re attracting unhealthy love and explore how childhood wounds, trauma bonds, people-pleasing, anxious attachment, and low self-worth can quietly shape your relationships.

You’ll learn:

* The hidden patterns behind toxic relationships

* How trauma influences who you’re attracted to

* The difference between healthy love and familiar pain

If you’ve ever wondered, “Why do I keep attracting the wrong person?” this episode is for you.

This episode isn’t about my story; it’s about God’s faithfulness.

I share my testimony not for me… but for you.

For the one who feels like they’re not enough.

For the one wondering whether to hold on or let go because the weight of this world has become heavier than the hope of another day.

For the one who can’t see the love within themselves because pain has drowned out the truth.

For the one who has believed the lies of the enemy instead of embracing the unconditional love of God.

No two stories are the same, and I will never compare my trauma to anyone else’s. But one truth changed everything for me: Jesus understands suffering.

He was rejected, abandoned, betrayed, falsely accused, mocked, beaten, humiliated, arrested though innocent, unjustly condemned, grieved, and misunderstood. He entered into human suffering so that no one would have to face it alone.

As I began reading Scripture, I realized I wasn’t just learning about Jesus—I was meeting the One who understood every chapter of my life.

The greatest lesson I learned is this: suffering did not define the end of Jesus’ story, and it doesn’t have to define yours.

The cross wasn’t the end. It was the beginning of victory.

In this episode, I share how God met me in my darkest moments, transformed my pain into purpose, restored hope where I thought none remained, and showed me that my testimony was never meant to point people to me—it was always meant to point them to Him.

If you’re struggling with trauma, abuse, rejection, grief, depression, anxiety, hopelessness, or you’re searching for God in the middle of your pain, I pray this testimony reminds you that your story isn’t over.

My testimony isn’t proof of who I am.

It’s evidence of who He is.

And if He did it for me, He can do it for you.

If this episode encouraged you, please follow the podcast, leave a review, and share it with someone who needs hope today.

Have you ever felt like your child hates you? The slammed doors, eye rolls, silence, anger, or rejection can leave parents feeling heartbroken and questioning everything they’re doing. But what if those behaviors aren’t signs of hate at all?

In this episode, we explore the deeper truth behind childhood emotions and behaviors. Children often express pain, fear, confusion, and unmet needs through anger because they don’t yet have the emotional tools to communicate what they’re truly feeling.

We’ll discuss:

* How childhood trauma, divorce, family conflict, and life changes affect behavior

* The difference between discipline and emotional connection

* How parents can become a safe space instead of a battleground

* Practical ways to build trust, communication, and security with your child

If you’re a parent, grandparent, caregiver, or someone healing from your own childhood wounds, this episode will offer hope, insight, and encouragement. Sometimes what looks like rebellion is really a child asking, “Will you still love me when I’m struggling?”

Join us as we uncover how creating a safe, loving environment can transform relationships and help children feel seen, heard, and valued.

In this powerful episode of “Sorry Satan, This Soul Is for the Savior,” we dive into one of the most important conversations of our time: suicide awareness, mental health, and the science behind emotional pain.

We explore the latest suicide statistics, why so many people suffer in silence, and how trauma, chronic stress, depression, and anxiety can affect the brain. Learn how the amygdala (the brain’s fear and survival center) can become stuck in overdrive, causing individuals to feel trapped in cycles of fear, hopelessness, emotional overwhelm, and despair.

We’ll discuss the role of brain chemicals such as serotonin, dopamine, cortisol, and how imbalances can impact mood, decision-making, and emotional regulation. You’ll also discover how the prefrontal cortex, the part of the brain responsible for logic and reasoning, can become less effective when the brain is flooded with stress signals.

Most importantly, this episode offers hope. Whether you’re struggling yourself, supporting a loved one, or simply wanting to understand the human mind better, this conversation reminds us that healing is possible, help is available, and your story is not over.

Join me as I share insights, personal experiences, and encouragement for anyone navigating darkness while searching for light.

Why do so many people fear being alone? Why do some individuals find themselves jumping from one relationship to the next, unable to find peace in solitude?

In this episode of Sorry Satan, This Soul Is for the Savior, we explore the connection between childhood trauma, abandonment wounds, attachment styles, and codependent relationships. We discuss how early life experiences can shape our need for validation, emotional security, and connection—and how those survival patterns can follow us into adulthood.

Drawing from personal experiences and trauma recovery insights, we uncover the difference between being alone and being lonely, why codependency develops, and how healing begins when we learn to find safety, identity, and worth within ourselves instead of seeking them in others.

If you’ve ever struggled with loneliness, relationship dependency, fear of abandonment, or finding your identity outside of a relationship, this episode offers hope, encouragement, and practical steps toward healing.

Sorry Satan, This Soul Is for the Savior is a safe place where survivors share their stories, trauma is transformed into testimony, and hope shines light into even the darkest seasons of life.

Listen now and begin your journey from survival mode to healing, freedom, and self-discovery.

#ChildhoodTrauma #Codependency #FearOfBeingAlone #TraumaHealing #MentalHealthPodcast #AttachmentStyles #AbandonmentIssues #SelfWorth #HealingJourney #TraumaRecovery #FaithBasedPodcast #SorrySatanThisSoulIsForTheSavior #PersonalGrowth #InnerChildHealing #RelationshipHealing #SurvivorToThriver

What if the greatest stories ever told were never meant to be taken only literally… but psychologically, spiritually, and consciously? In this thought-provoking podcast episode, we explore the difference between subconscious programming and conscious awareness, and how belief systems shape human reality.

We dive into the scientific discussion of XX and XY chromosomes, how biological sex is genetically determined, and the theological mystery surrounding the story of the Virgin Mary and the birth of Jesus. If a woman carries XX chromosomes and traditionally a man determines whether a child is XX or XY, how has this story been interpreted throughout history? Is it meant to be understood as literal reality, divine intervention, symbolic consciousness, or a deeper message about creation itself?

This episode explores the intersection of spirituality, science, theology, psychology, and subconscious belief systems. We discuss how stories, symbols, frequencies, emotions, and inherited beliefs influence the subconscious mind — and whether awakening into consciousness means questioning everything we were taught about reality.

Topics include:

Subconscious mind vs conscious awareness

False reality and belief systems

XX and XY chromosome science

The Virgin Mary and immaculate conception

Theology vs biology

Consciousness and perception

Spiritual symbolism in religion

Science, faith, and human creation

Awakening from programmed beliefs

If you’ve ever questioned whether reality is something we inherit, create, or awaken into… this conversation is for you.

What if Adam and Eve were never meant to be understood only as literal people? In this deep podcast episode, we explore the scientific discovery of humanity’s earliest origins in Africa thousands of years before the biblical story of Adam and Eve, while examining the spiritual and theological symbolism behind the ancient text.

Discover how Adam and Eve can represent oneness, masculine and feminine energy, consciousness, internal emotions, frequencies, vibrations, and the human condition itself. We break down the connection between science, spirituality, neuroscience, energy, emotional conditioning, and how our inner state influences the reality we experience today.

Topics include:

Human origins and ancient African ancestry

Symbolic interpretation of Adam and Eve

Consciousness, frequency, and vibration

Emotional energy and reality perception

Science vs spirituality

Collective consciousness and healing

The connection between mind, body, and energy

This episode bridges theology, philosophy, science, and spiritual awakening to ask one powerful question:

Were Adam and Eve historical figures… or symbolic mirrors of humanity itself?

#AdamAndEve #HumanOrigins #Africa #SpiritualAwakening #Consciousness #Frequency #Vibration #Energy #Neuroscience #Theology #AncientHistory #Healing #Mindset #Podcast #Spirituality

What if the life you’re searching for begins with the frequency you live in every day? In this powerful episode inspired by Nikola Tesla and his famous ideas surrounding energy, vibration, and frequency, we explore how healing shifts you from survival mode into abundance, alignment, peace, and authenticity.

This episode dives into mindset shifts and how the connection between energy, frequency, and vibration results in personal transformation.

Learn why healing is the key to becoming free from fear, scarcity, and self-abandonment so you can finally become the most authentic version of yourself.

If you’re on a journey of self-discovery, spiritual awakening, mental health healing, or personal growth, this episode will remind you that fulfillment was never outside of you — it was waiting on the other side of healing.